I'm a social misfit. I don't come up with fun topics to throw to the crowd, I don't have hilarious stories to entice my dinner pals, at least I don't know how to tell them in a crowd-pleasing way. It does not mean I hate people. I just can only handle social scenes for so long before I get mentally exhausted. I like observing people for a while and then going back to not caring about them so much. I like dwelling alone in my own private space. I used to think that's not cool, but I've grown to understand that it is. I try to be as lively and bright so that I always emit positive energy to my surrounding. And it does give me a certain pleasure to be able to affect people that way. Much like my heart-mind-and-soul finds bliss in quietness, some people find happiness in connecting with people and sharing energy and I find comfort in knowing I can contribute to other people's joy the way I do myself.